Shoni.

Shoni on the windowsill.

Chilling. :)

Loves being outside.

Sleeping time.

Phoenix, Jr.

My Hippie Boy.

He sleeps in the best way. Tummy Up!

On the windowsill with the plant.

After I got the books from my special friend, I decided to dress Peach up.
[I hope I didn't offend you with this photo. I love this picture. Peach looks adorable<3.]

Moody Peach.

Photo Finish.

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I thought I knew myself very well. At least more than anyone else who knows me.

COMPETITIVE. [com·pet·i·tive]
Function: adjective
1 : relating to, characterized by, or based on competition (competitive sports)
2 : inclined, desiring, or suited to compete (competitive personality)
3 : depending for effectiveness on the relative concentration of two or more substances
- com·pet·i·tive·ly adverb
- com·pet·i·tive·ness noun

I am very competitive, maybe more than I should be. I hate losing in anything I do, whether I am good or bad at. My world of competition doesn't involve only playing sports. I thirst for winning affection. I crave for gaining attention. I have an appetite for being number one. Even having a friend, I want to be the number one friend of that person. It's not like I'm looking to get back as much as I give... but I get jealous of not being number one. I guess I want the person to love me as much as I do love him/her. I hope this made sense.

Feeling this way gets to me most of the time. Things don't work this way. I can't be number one all the time. I can't be good at everything. I don't know why I felt like writing this. This reflects my personality badly. Hey.. I'm not here to please anyone, so it's OK to show how really I am?! I always say I don't care what other people think of me, but I know I do. Errr, I honestly don't know what I'm trying to type here. I am simply the attention whore and want everyone to care about me.

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I am not a big American patriot, but I get offended when someone makes a silly comment. The word, "Retarded" is a word :) Maybe it's not recognized or used in the English language in the UK. It is used in America as an adjective of "Retard." If you don't know what you are talking about, don't make a quick conclusion that American people don't know what they are talking about. If you are English, you should know Americans and English don't use the same type of English from time to time.

You are a retarded person. You are retard. They are both correctly used. Some British person said that this was wrong and retard was also an adjective.

lol
2. retarded
To be tarded twice..
John who is tarded.. is now retarded

Inside of My Head.

+Currently, I am growing a pot of catnip in my bathroom.
+I got two new plants for my place :) and the matching white pots for them.
+Can't sleep. Then I think of reasons. That makes me even more awake.
+Think of what I can do for myself. There's too many things I wanna do, but I don't take action.
+Where are my motivations?! I feel I'm so dead inside of myself.
+Peach is just a sweetheart.
+Atrociousness. Heinousness. Nefariousness. Wickedness. Fiendishness. Debauchery. Degeneracy. Abomination.
+I wish I were 17 years old.
+"This area of the galaxy was once ruled by an alien warlord named Xenu. 65 million years ago his empire was overpopulated horribly, so to combat the overpopulation he had trillions of citizens called in for psychiatric evaluations and tax audits, where they were given paralytic drugs, loaded onto space planes, and flown to Planet Teegeeack." = Scientology
+Summer = Mugicha
+Don't feel I have to. Wait till it comes.