8.27.2007

苦しむ事。

失敗してもいいよ。
次を頑張ろう。
誰も、ディサポイントなんてしないから。
自分らしく生きてみよう。

苦しい時は、もがいてもがいてその苦しみの中から光を見つければいい。
今を、大切に。
人生の中、無駄な時間なんて一秒たりもないんだから。

ノー、リグレッツ。

8.24.2007

The Power Within.

"Looking up at the sky makes me appreciate just how the world is.
It makes me realize I'm an idiot, because all my trouble seem so minor in comparison.
I only start thinking this way... after I met you."



8.03.2007

Rain and Me.

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I am "雨女" [ame-onna]. Big time.

Ame-onna is "Said to be related to a Chinese mountain goddess who became a cloud in the morning and rain in the evening, this female spirit is herself less a monster and more a folk deity, who can be seen walking about in the human world on wet nights. Farmers, who depend so much on keeping their crops watered, still pray for the appearance of beings like the ame-onna, for wherever she travels, the rain falls."

I didn't know much about the fact that it was related to a Chinese mountain goddess. However, "
wherever she travels, the rain falls," concept is also known to Japanese folks. In Japan, if you were born on a rainy day, you are Ame-onna [onna is female] and Ame-otoko [otoko is male]. Wherever you go and whatever you plan to do in your life, it will rain. I was born on the rainy day. Rain is my changeless associate.

It doesn't rain much on the days I plan to do something anymore. When I was younger, my family and friends always reminded me how "Ame-onna" I was. NO matter what we planned to do, if I was the part of plans, it rained. The night before our plans, I always made "teruteru bouzu [weather dolls]," praying for the fine weather next day. "Teruteru bouzu" is made of tissue papers. I made the hand-made dolls and chanted "Ashita Tenki ni Shite Okure," for them as I wished it to be sunny the next day. As a kid, I always made them before the things I was looking forward to attend. We hung the dolls under the roof outside the window the night before.

I just felt like having this entry because we had a big thunderstorm with lightning and rain in the evening today. I don't know the reason, but I felt very nostalgic. When it rains, I feel like talking to my mom.

All I wanna do right now is just sing songs out loud endlessly.

P.S. I miss the summer festivals with lots of fireworks in J.