Looney Days.

Loco

I gotta admit my flaws. Well, if I point them out, there's way too many of them than I can write down. I know.. I know.. After I snap out every time, I tell myself the same exact story over and over in my head. It's also my weakness that I cannot overcome.

When I'm out of control, I tend to release my stress on other people, especially to the ones who are close to me. I know this is not the way I should be dealing with these stresses, but I can't help it. Yes, I'm sorry I just made another excuse. It's possible to solve this problem and I know I can fix it. It's just that when I'm stressed out, other minor details seem to bother me so much as well [although they normally don't mean much to me.]

My good friend, David, from school once told me.. Life is all about having balance. I didn't really get what he meant when he first told me. I think I got it better now.

Emotionally out of balance, I become very crazed. As much as I care about these people whom I release my stress on, I can't maintain good balance and become cruel to them. It's my weakness that I just assume they would forgive me even if I mistreat them. What if they won't? I am spoiled by their kindness and warm-hearted cares. I abuse them. This also applies to my mom. She's the victim and I often released my stress on her when I was younger.

My dearest people don't deserve treatment like this from me nor anyone else. I know I would love to fix it, but it seems that this is taking a long time for me to be able to overcome.

Recently, I was being not nice to some people and I would like to apologize for how I was.
I'm sorry.