Grand.

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Sunny inside, outside.
Clear body and soul. Clear sky.
Geez, it feels good.

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I didn't know Shoni was SO protective. She's like an overprotective mother to her children. She protects P.J. when he makes a pained "meow" as if she's in a major life crisis.

1- When P.J. is getting a bath and makes the sound, she comes in and tries to bite my arm.
2- When P.J. goes on a car ride, she meows on the windowsill for half an hour wondering if her brother is kidnapped and shipped to somewhere scary.
3- When P.J. is stepped on by accident, she jumps on my leg and scratches me.

What a sweet 'lil sister she is.

負けるな。

xoxo

「踏まれた草にも花が咲く」
ということわざをとりあげ、
辛くても我慢すればきっといつか自分らしい花が咲くと説くのだった。

To live is to change.

Love is cherishing the life of another person.

HOPE:
-what keeps us living
-what provides the dreams of tomorrow.
As long as there is a tomorrow, people can go on living.
Because we dream of tomorrow, we've been able to survive until today.

G in Supreme Alphabet.

"...I am not a perfectionist
But still I seek perfection"
-The Eternal Lament, 2Pac

Somewhat, everyone is a perfectionist. At least, that's what I think. Each person seeks perfection in a different thing.

For instance, for me... I hate to see one of my entries, "Rain and Me." No matter how many times I tried to fix the problem, I can't solve it. Literally, it is driving me nuts. I know I can just ignore it and never look at it again, but I can't do that. Some parts of the entry have the different font size.

IT IS DRIVING ME CRAZY!

I never really thought of myself as a perfectionist, but I am being particular about having order. If I draw 5 lines, I will definitely make them all equal. I will fix them until I get them all right, from the beginning to the end.

My place is kinda messy. I found it funny thinking I could be a perfectionist. New discovery for myself.

Try me! :)

PERFECTIONISM

From the Discovery health website, "Perfectionism can be a healthy quality that drives a person to try his/her best and to make the effort to excel. Some people, however, take the strive for perfection too far...and there is a price to pay. Extreme perfectionists are forever dissatisfied; they can never fulfill their own expectations so, in their own eyes, they are always failures. Chronic perfectionism is driven by deep-seated feelings of inferiority and self-hate, and by nature it reinforces a negative self-image. Performing tasks or fulfilling goals becomes intimidating and unpleasant, since the perfectionist knows deep down that the finished product will never meet his/her expectations. So the perfectionist might have problems with procrastination. Perfectionism, then, can become a double-edged sword - the perfectionist is driven by a desire to succeed, as well as a fear of failure which leaves him/her paralyzed.

In all realms, striving for excellence can be beneficial and lead to a fulfilling professional and personal life. Accepting nothing less than excellence, on the other hand, can be emotionally scarring."

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The result of my perfectionism test: 62/100

According to this test, you have some perfectionist tendencies that may be making you unnecessarily unhappy. You sometimes set high standards that are difficult to meet; either you impose those expectations on yourself, others, or a combination of the two. You may even think that others expect you to be perfect. While a desire to do your very best and strive to reach your full potential can bring you personal fulfillment, you have to learn when good is 'good enough'. It's important that you strengthen your ability to distinguish between reasonable aspirations and unrealistic demands. When you set unattainable objectives, you are being cruel to yourself and denying yourself the rewards and self-acceptance that you deserve.

Dear Orangey.

The moon was extraordinarily orange. It was slightly fatter than the normal crescent.

My dear friend e-mailed me after the two years of no contact.
'Dear Orangey,' as he stated.

It tickled me deep inside of my heart. We used to talk all the time, then somehow we stopped talking for a while. The moon made me recall how I used to like being called Orangey. I love the color, orange. It's warm and is the color of my energy.

"Let's keep the moon awake
And do electric boogiloo..." (cabron -rhcp)

103.1 is weird. Everything makes me feel so melancholy. Am I just getting old? When I think of past, it makes me feel as if I'm looking into someone else's life, as an outsider. Although it's all about me, I just can't feel I know who I am. This is really weird feelings.

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Questions!?

01. Can you cry under water?
02. How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of murdered?
03. Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. But it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to?
04. Once you're in heave, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?
05. Why does a round pizza come in a square box?
06. What disease did cured ham actually have?
07. How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?
08. Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake up like every two hours?
09. If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?
10. Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?
11. Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?
12. Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you naked anyway.
13. Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural?
14. Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?
15. If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a stupid song about him?
16. Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?
17. If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?
18. Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs!
19. If Wile E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that ACME crap, why didn't he just buy dinner?
20. If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, what is baby oil made from?
21. If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?
22. Do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?
23. Why did you just try singing the two songs above?
24. Why do they call it an asteroid when it's outside the hemisphere, but call it a hemorrhoid when it's in your butt?
25. Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him for a car ride, he sticks his head out the window?

By the way, Hi Sue!

だョネ

"A man has three faces.

1- yourself that you know.
2- yourself that others know.
3- the real you.

How do we know who we are really like?
Possibly when you lost everything, you know who you are.
Then it is much happier not knowing oneself."

★★★

春の木漏れ日の中で
君のやさしさに　埋もれていた
ぼくは　弱虫だったんだョネ

君と話に疲れて　いつか黙り込んだ
ストーブ代わりの電熱器
赤く燃えていた

地下のジャズ喫茶
変われないぼくたちがいた
悪い夢のように　時がなぜてゆく

ぼくが一人になった部屋に
君の好きなチャーリーパーカ見つけたヨ
ぼくを忘れたカナー

だめになった　ぼくを見て
君もびっくりしただろう
あの子はまだ元気かい
昔の話だネ

春の木漏れ日の中で
君のやさしさに　埋もれていた
ぼくは　弱虫だったんだョネ

ぼくたちの失敗、森田童子

"I Love E. Everything begins with E."

Chronic.
I love the first 17 second of this song which gives me the state of ecstasy.

*FYI, it's not Rhianna's.

before the Great Separation.

[ANGEL , Craig Mod]

the Age of Perfect Virtue
-lived in the state of pure simplicity.
-wisdom and ability were not singled out as extraordinary.

*People behaved correctly, without knowing that to be Righteousness and Propriety.
*They loved and respected each other, without calling that Benevolence.
*They were faithful and honest, without considering that to be Loyalty.
*They kept their word, without thinking of Good Faith.
*In their everyday conduct, they helped and employed each other, without considering Duty.
*They didn't concern themselves with Justice, as there was no injustice.

xoxo